Long time.. no post

Well so much has happened since last post and totally forgot about even having blog out here. We bought home and as of June 15, 2010 have been in for one year and just love it. It took a lot of convincing from Keith, but I'm glad I listened and it has been a blessing.

Church, CR and Karen have just changed my life and I have really grown with dealing with my emotions, learning not to react without thinking first and just trying to love me in my own skin and be thankful for all God has given me.

So many new friends now, it is still wonderful. I still get anxious but they know that about me and just take me for who I am and I love that.

Work is awesome and Frederica and I have really worked things out and actually enjoy her as a supervisor, which I NEVER thought would happen.

So many blessings and prayers that have been answered over the past year; God is good and he does take care of you if you just let go and let him take over and trust he knows exactly what he wants for you in life!!

Well, let's see, where to begin. First off, I'm now taking two medications for the anxiety instead of the just one and back at therapist. I know I should just be thankful and work on it, but it just seems as I get better something pulls me back down and I get so tired of it. I'm gaining weight like crazy from the meds and that is driving me nuts as well. Karen also wants me to start writing down dreams so we can go over them in therapy.

Last night I just had a dream about partying. I think it is just withdraws since I have been trying to be good and not smoke, drink or anything else. I guess dreaming about it is better than doing it!!!

I'm trying to get things cleaned up at work so I can enjoy my vacation next week. I truely need to get away and can't wait to go. I hope it is very relaxing and enjoyable.